Two Songs Sung

Over the past week my posts have been sparse and cryptic. I apologize for that. In reality it was not something that could have been avoided. Terry, one of my best friends ever, passed away last week. Until the family was ready to disclose it I couldn’t talk about it. My pain was great, their pain is unbearable. So I posted tidbits we would understand but which wouldn’t mean much of anything to anyone else

Since learning of Terry’s death my mind has rushed to corner after corner seeking out memories. For the past 43 or so years Terry has been such an important part of my life. He was there when our first son was born. We had to tell him to get the heck out of the room just before, and I mean, just before John Lee came into this world. 

Terry took me to the hospital the night I had to have my appendix out. We took Barb, his wife, to the hospital when she was ready to deliver. This was because he was in a room where his cell phone didn’t work. But we followed up and made sure he got to the hospital before Allen came into this earth’s air. He was in my wedding and I was in his. I could go on page after page with such stories.

He convinced me to camp and canoe. So many nights spent along river banks and lakeshores talking about everything.Our topics ranged from using white gas to spur a campfire along (not really a wise idea-men don’t look right without eyebrows) to the meaning of it all, including this thing we call life. I convinced him to camp in Henryville and then take that short trip to the Fellini-esque spectacle that is the infield at the Kentucky Derby. Those nights by the campfire were special and that is why I linked the blog post on camping.

The ‘Glendale Train' link was tied to another camping trip. Many years ago in that short span when I left Michigan and moved to Delaware (1984-1986) Francie and I missed our Michigan friends. After weeks of phone calls it was agreed that we would meet near Donegal Pennsylvania and raft the whitewater river just south of there. Six of our friends drove out from East Lansing and us from Wilmington.

We pulled it off. There are many stories to tell about that weekend. There was a major mistake made when we decided after six hours on the river to take the one-hour tour of Wright's Fallingwater. We were so exhausted by the exertion that we fell asleep standing up during the tour.

Then there was the park ranger investigating our campsite on our first night there. Francie and I brought a gourmet delight for our Midwestern friends. Over a Coleman camp stove we boiled a bushel basket of Maryland blue crabs for dinner. Mr. Ranger just couldn't figure out what we were up to and what all that crap was on the table. This was i.e. crab guts and shells.

Later that night after the crabfest the four guys were sitting around talking. The women had gone to bed. Well we guys started talking about music and the next thing you know we were all singing the absolute most terrible version of New Rider’s 'Glendale Train' you have ever heard. There were muffled calls from four separate tents telling us to shut the fuck up and head to bed.

Marty Robbins’s ‘El Paso’ was another all male, and off key sing along following one of Terry’s tasty Mexican food dinners. God somehow, some way, someone got the idea that we should all wear sombreros. The sombreros led to singing, terrible singing, “Down in the West Texas Town of El Paso…” Terry, John, Glen and me - oh how we harmonized. The passion was there, but the talent was not. Glen left us first passing a couple of years ago. And now Terry is gone.

I am destroyed. I never thought a man with such a life force would pass before me given all my maladies. I am wrecked. I knew he would always be there, no matter how far apart our travels in the world took us, if I needed him. I posted the picture of us all at the dinner table just so you could see the love and camaraderie we really shared.

I broke the news to some of our friends. I held it together until I remembered our sort of tontine. About a year after Francie and I were married six of us drove to Chicago for a hockey game. While there we saw some pretty rare cognac in a store near the hotel. To buy the bottle, all the guys contributed $50, maybe $75 each in 1980s money. We agreed that the cognac would only be opened for births, deaths and maybe some other unspecified major life events. We have taken a few sips of it over the years, births, major moves, but there is still plenty left.

When I informed one of the other ‘Glendale Train’ singers, John, of Terry death I asked him to drive the forty miles to my house in East Lansing to pick up the cognac. We will need it after whatever memorial service comes. As I remembered the snowy day we bought it I just broke down sobbing. I don’t think any of us really understood what our agreement meant. I don’t think we understood the pain that will come when we take a sip these forty years on.

At some point soon we will lift a small glass and say "To Terry." And then we will cry our eyes out and sob wretchedly. And then we will talk again with sentences like, “Do you remember that night in Sudbury?” And “Oh God what about that time…” We will try and bury the pain with some of the dearest memories our hearts have ever held.

Terry loved the Grateful Dead. Here's your miracle ticket my man.

Traveling North in my Memory

 

Ever tried to mentally put yourself back in a particular place and time? Some events you can't forget. Whether they be for good or ill they are hung in your mind forever. Other occasions ‘not so much’ as that phrase is used today.  

Today I tried to remember a specific camping trip but couldn't.  There were so many outings to “the wild” that they all blend together. Thinking about life on a grand scale, having that many experiences in the woods with good friends (and these trips were always communal) was not really a bad thing.

Most camping trips I recall were up north. Up North for people who don’t live in Michigan is any place at least 5 miles north of your home and preferably on water be it a pond, creek, lake or one of the inland seas that touch northern Michigan (Huron, Superior and Michigan). For me Up North meant you had to at least pass Grayling before putting stakes into the dirt. Up North means an old CCC camp site or a state forest campground. Up North was synonymous pine smell and moving water.

I did not camp as a kid. As a result going camping was initially foreign. Camping trips for me began immediately after I moved back to Lansing after law school in Detroit. On any given weekend in summer we could jump into a car and head up north. It was a ritual that truly belonged to Michigan. New Jersey has a day trip to the shore. But Michigan is so big a trip to get out of the house that it requires a weekend to do it right.

Our camping tools evolved. Initially we slept inside a pup tent just big enough for two sleeping bags. It was only a couple feet tall and you couldn’t sit up inside. The tent was a leftover from our 1978 trip in a car named Thunder Road. We had gone to Oregon to find America. We still have that tan non-breathing nylon fire trap stashed up in the rafters of the garage.Bought it at Woolco, remember Woolco? 

We also had cheap assed cotton batting sleeping bags. After one too many chilly nights, those were replaced with LL Bean sleeping bags. Just because something like a road trip is a spur of the moment decision does not mean it has to be uncomfortable, not when you have the right equipment and a good attitude.

From the pup tent we migrated to a Eureka dome tent for our accommodation. The dome claimed to comfortably sleep five. Three was more honest. The claim of five was only true if your idea of comfort is that everyone has someone else’s body parts stuffed up near your face I would draw a diagram but this is being created on Word and I don’t know how to do that. Instead I will describe the situation.  

Imagine a circle. Place four bodies in it with the shortest campers being on the outsides and the tallest being on the inside. Running atop these four bodies curved to conform to the top edge of the circle is body five. Routinely body five would be at everyone’s heads. If this camper were at the foot of everyone they would get kicked repeatedly during the night.

Configured like this for sleeping the shorter people on the outside got zephyrs of halitosis or foot funk odors respectively. On camping trips personal hygiene standards are lax and generated these kind of smells. People forget tooth brushes. Meh. Feet get wet because it always rains on camping trips. Let me repeat that, it always rains on camping trips in Michigan. One of the two middle sleepers gets a strong intermittent methane breeze.  Camping trip cuisine such as BEER, and BEANS elevates the chances of GI distress and gas production. Only one or maybe two campers (depending on how drunk the smelly person sleeping on that curved right angle from everyone else is) get a decent night’s sleep.

Finally we bought a big ass tent with poles that created a huge rectangle. I don’t think we've used it more than a handful of times. But the mega-tent fits four cots.  This refugee from a revival will also provide a comfortable distance between all campers. This concept of personal space is a much diminished one when you are out on the weekend but on a camping trip you will take what you can get. 

There are common elements to all the camping trips that cascade before my mind’s eye.  Beer. Rain. Mud. Campfires. Boom boxes (first cassettes, then CD). Also there was usually a purpose tied to the trip most often a canoe excursion down one of the many rivers of Michigan. Every so often we would sleep out at the end of a small spit of land poking out into the Great Lakes and we would make our goal a winery tour on the Leelanau Peninsula. Those events often ended in a stupor, so they were limited.Wine and cheese and a long and winding road back to the tents don’t mix well.

On any trip we planned with more than an hour of advance notice, we did some prep work. On Thursday night the car got packed. A large Coleman cooler, a small Coleman stove, a Coleman lantern and some Coleman fuel would get smushed into the trunk. Packed in addition, sleeping bags, pillows, shorts, T-shirts, jeans and leather jackets.  

If there was time we would make a quick trip to Meijer and buy some food. Initially it was hotdogs and bags of chips we would grab as foodstuffs. Later it became chicken breasts, greens for a salad and dried cherries to go with each. Nothing is quite as tasty as a chicken breast wrapped together with dried cherries in aluminum foil cooked in the coals of a camp fire. On Friday as soon as work was done we would jump into a snaking line of cars headed up north on the only freeway from here to there, U.S.-127. We would stop about 20 miles up the road and grab a burger, fries and a pop and we would boogie on heading up north.

Depending on where you were heading, you passed a number of landmarks. My favorite was Woodhenge. It was just a stone’s throw from the trip's start. This was a barn that somebody started (I have been told) and then never finished. A number of warped and twisted but rather tall polls stands to the right of the highway. There was a marker for the 45th parallel indicating that you were halfway between the equator and the North Pole. There was Big Buck Brewery, which was one of the first microbreweries to make a splash in Michigan. If you headed off to Lake Michigan you could pass the gas station where the guy had the bear chained out back as a tourist attraction.

In early summer it doesn’t get dark up north until 10 or later.  If you got off right when work was over you set up your tent in the fading light. If you got there slightly late someone else was already making the fire. Hopefully this time they wouldn’t burn their eyebrows off when the white gas that soaked into the firewood caused a fireball. You swept the ground where you pitched the tent with your feet to ensure stones and sticks wouldn’t poke you all night. The tent popped up easily when the magically connected tent poles snapped together and were slid through the small flaps of nylon on the outside of the tent. You unrolled your Thermarest mats and let them inflate. You slung your sleeping bag in and grabbed a beer and pulled up a stool and sat around the fire.

Some trips were long, once we circled Lake Huron. Truly I once spent a Sudbury Saturday night. Another year we traveled across the top of Lake Superior to Thunder Bay and to the Valhalla Inn. It was there that I learned you shouldn't drink a beer in a hot tub when you are tired. Some trips took us back to the same campgrounds again and again. It was also there where we visited the birth place of the real Winnie the Pooh.

Some trip endings were pushed to the last hour of sun on Sunday because you were just having so much damn fun. Some forays were scuttled by rain on Saturday. There is a very clear olfactory memory for almost every Michigan tent camper.It is the one of pulling a damp hoodie out of a black garbage bag that served as your dirty clothes hamper for the weekend. The odor is stale going on mildewed. There are equal parts soggy wood smoke and Harp beer scents rising from the hoodie. Yup rain was the enemy.

Some trips were cosmic. Ain’t nothing quite like watching the northern lights kick up as you stand on a lake shore looking out into the blackness now growing into surreal light. The dancing green/green blue curtains sweep across you and keep you staring upwards for hours.  

A camping trip made you drop the phone. A camping trip made you step away from the computer. A camping trip puts you in touch with real honest people.  Sitting down on those small aluminum stools around the fire the second night of the weekend you talked about jobs, life, love, hopes and aspirations. Connections were restored in the dancing firelight and beer bottle clinking. Connections that would last a lifetime.

Honestly, I was trying to remember one camping trip. In the end, I will remember a lifetime filled with fun and joy.

Here Comes the Rain Again

On these dark rain filled Lisboa nights at the tail end of winter I often end up walking to the supermercado. Every time it gets dark, I need to get one thing, or another, from the store. Most often it is something I will need for breakfast the next day say a liter of skim milk.

As I negotiate the wet and slippery polished stone sidewalks I find myself repeating a behavior I haven’t actually needed to do for about forty years. My right hand thumb taps against my forefinger, a finger that together with my middle finger are curved slightly inwards toward my palm. I am unconsciously knocking the ash off a phantom cigarette.

I will never smoke a cigarette again. But it is not too difficult to remember the feeling of inhaling the warm smoke of a Marlboro red on a damp cold night. Perhaps it is because there are so many folks in the over 40 age bracket that still smoke in this city.

As I walk down the hill to the clean and bright grocery store, I smell cigarette smoke from the old men with their collars up. They are sitting outside the small Portuguese outdoor cafe. I will smell cigarette smoke wafting out of the windows of the purportedly smoke-free Airbnbs I pass. I will smell cigarette smoke from shivering scrawny men from Africa and the Middle East standing in the shadows of an empty parking lot.

As the mist moves back to actual rain I zip up my waterproof shell and pull up my hood. Those actions trigger another memory. I remember cupping my hands to shield my cigarette from the rain when I was standing on a street corner in my little hometown three thousand miles from here.

When you live long enough, you will realize how alone you are. It may come when you are walking alone on a rainy street remembering a behavior you gave up long ago. Realization may be brought to you when you are driving in traffic and the radio plays a song you haven’t heard in twenty years. Awareness may come to you as you wait for sleep havingsaid your prayers, your appeals, to whatever may reside in the imperceptible ether, requests and pleas you have made with doubt lingering.

But we soldier on, we travel on facing darkness. There is only one way out of the human experience so we have no other choice. It is probably best if we try to travel the road from womb to tomb savoring the moments when the sun breaks through the clouds.

A Little Bit of Rainy Day Tourism Fiction

 [The writing prompts for today were twofold. Start a story with an apology. End a story with a question. I did both.]

"Sorry"

She heard the apology but wasn't sure what it was for. In this almost stranger's kitchen the old man moved to and fro. Outside the world crawled. Looking out the kitchen's window into the apartment block’s courtyard, she saw small drops of rain steadily falling. Everything was wet. The sky was grey. The rain muted the pastel colors of all the buildings.

A loose apron hung around the man’s neck. There was a colorful picture of the Barcelos' cock and “Bon Dia” stitched on the front of the dangling garment. Could there be any clearer sign that she had arrived in Portugal? Gray haired and wearing wire rim glasses this man, her host, roamed the kitchen. He held a heavy pan. Last night when he made her a welcome to Lisboa grilled cheese and prosciutto sandwich he told her it was purchased from the neighborhood ‘fine’ cookware store.

She wondered if those were John Lennon style glasses he was wearing. However, given she had paid scant attention to the Beatles, they were so before her time, she couldn't tell. The pan appeared an ideal vessel for cooking an omelette, except for its weight. The man cracked the eggs and mixed them with two ounces of milk in a coffee cup sitting beside the gas stove. Taking the cheese and ham from the refrigerator he diced them on a small wooden cutting board to sprinkle on the cooking omelette. He pulled out a spidery red pepper and used an arched eyebrow to silently ask if he should dice it and throw it in. Just as silently with a left to right to left head shake she told him no.

"I have to apologize to you. This will not be the prettiest of omelettes. In all the cooking shows you see the chef easily flipping the omelette. Try as I might I cannot do that in this pan. I will simply have to use my spatula and sort of flop the eggs over. The taste won’t be any different, but on the whole it won’t be pretty. This concoction will be somewhere between an omelette and scrambled eggs. Are you OK with that?"

The old man’s guest at this breakfast table nodded in agreement that it would be OK. Beggars can't be choosers. She was not paying for breakfast nor for her room. Her host, the man preparing her the first meal of the day, was putting her up gratis for a couple of nights on this leg of her trip to the Iberian Peninsula. The gent walking about the kitchen was actually a friend of her very close friend, well her mentor back in the States. Apparently the two men shared a house in graduate school. When she asked for stories of life in the house, both claimed allegiance to a secret oath never to reveal what went on in the purple house they called Marvin.

She believed the old man seemed safe. He was married and had adult kids. There were family pictures everywhere. His wife was finishing up a trip to Barcelona and would return tomorrow. He had said a couple of times, “I think you'll actually like my wife better than me. She is way more interesting than I am. She knows all the hidden spots to hit for the best pastries. She knows where the pocket museums are. And she is more polite than me." Adding to her sense of safety her room could be locked from the inside.

Walking to and from the stove, the refrigerator, the coffee grinder, he kept talking."You know the asshole in chief made a speech last night. Obviously, I didn’t listen to it because it came on at one in the morning here. Even if I'd been in the same time zone, I would not have listened to that doofus. After breakfast, I may look at the Post to see if there was anything earth-shattering that we exiles need to know.

One of the most delightful things about living in the EU is that you can turn off the US news cycle for a day or two." Having said this he looked at her with sad eyes. His sad eyes were clearly those of an old exile running from his country's turn toward madness. "You may not have a country to go back to when your three months are done. If need be you can always stay here until the end of 90 days Schengen will tolerate you for."

The kitchen smells became more delightful. With care he placed a bottle of fresh squeezed orange juice in front of her. Pushing the lovely pulp filled juice in her direction he retrieved a small clear glass from an upper cabinet, and put it next to the bottle. He turned back toward the gas stove.

Facing away from her he spoke again. "I know you’re keen to get the rest of your travel underway, but it’s going to rain for the next four days in a circle 200 miles in any direction. If you stay here you can dry off in this warm kitchen after your daily explorations. Trust me there are palaces and museums enough to fill four days. On the other hand you could head out into the mud of the countryside and be miserable. At least I think you’ll be miserable."

Truth be told, she had weighed the same considerations. Being a friend of a friend of her host, she decided not to make the first overture to extend her stay. She was more than glad he offered.

Her host moved the spatula in the large pan to push the edges of the omelette in as it warmed and started to congeal. Looking directly at her he continued talking. "If you head west you’re heading to a small town in a quasi desert. In summer it’s so damn hot. In summer you only go out to see the sites before 10 in the morning and after six at night. But it's winter and the rainy season and so you could putter around all day in that gray and brown cobblestone landscape. I mean what’s really over that way except for some big rocks sitting in a muddy field that are older than Stonehenge and a chapel filled with hundreds of skulls? The way I see it your real choices are between old wet stone churches. If you ride over there you get to peek into one with skulls. If you stay here you can wander through 20 skull-less Igejas."

The whole time he talked, her host was in motion. He bent over the stove, moving the pan about on the burner. Pulling some boiled potatoes from the ‘fridge he asked if he wanted some hash browns. She shook her head no. Back they went.He dropped two slices of bread into the toaster. He clicked on an American-style drip coffee maker. He wasn’t a whirling dervish, but he was focused in his movements. She heard the toast pop up and the smell of the browned bread mixed with the smell of the brewing coffee and it was delightful.

She pondered what he had said. The trip out to the city with the bone chapel would require either hopping on the train or grabbing a bus and wasting a couple of hours. Doing that on a rainy day wouldn’t be too bad, but she wasn’t sure of her accommodations when she got there. There was a nice bed and good food right here. She thought it might make sense to stay here another day, maybe two given he had extended the offer.

She was about to say she would stay an extra night when her host pulled the full pot of coffee out of where it had been brewing. "Heads up. It’s a blend from Cabo Verde. Bet you've never had that before. Are you up to visiting another palace today?"

"Are you coming with me when I go?" she asked, indicating with a question she was not planning to leave his hospitality, at least not today.

Walking Out Before the Rain Can Catch Me

Some days hold promise. Other days convey a sense of ‘meh’. As I work my way through morning rituals in the cozinha, making coffee, emptying the dishwasher, I can see the courtyard roofs are wet. There is standing water in anything that collects it. A pregnant grey sky hangs above with the promise of more, albeit of unpredictable intensity, precipitation. After yesterday and my visit to the doctor, I had promised myself I would take a long walk today. Maybe I will take a medium walk in my recently purchased REI rain jacket. As my wife often says, I won't melt.

I am not usually one to use sport’s metaphors but when you are in the fourth quarter (American football), or the third period (hockey), or the second half (futbol) of life you really hope for more days with that aura of promise. I desire more moments when my brain is engaged enough to sit at the keyboard after a morning of experience, preferably fresh experience. I want all those bits and bobs inside me fired up so that the words I am pounding out say something other than the world is a mess.

(1.5 hours later.)

Finished a 2.5-mile walk in just under an hour. Only when I reached the University of Lisboa campus did the rain really begin and even then it was just a light but steady drizzle. In the center of campus there was a job fair going on in a long tent. Outside were the hallmarks of university life. There was a truck selling fast food like bifanas and Sagres beer. Another truck offered what the Portuguese call American Hot Dogs. Yeah, these are hot dogs pulled from a jar warmed up, placed on a bun and covered with cheese, shredded carrots, corn and crumbled potato chips. American style hot dogs indeed. Oh yeah, Red Bull was there. Of course Red Bull was there.

Whenever I see a Portuguese food truck advertising ‘American Dogs’ I lapse into a dream about a hot dog cart. In this fantasy I am setting the cart up next to the roasted chestnut vendor at the Saldanha Circle Metro entrance. I mean the cart would have the whole nine yards. There would be relish, onions, ketchup, mustard, steamed buns and all meat franks ready to eat. There would be a bar above the bins with the dogs and buns with clips holding bags of batatas fritas or Doritos. I would have a cooler with Coke, Sprite and cold water. Ah to be back on the streets of New York City, Philadelphia, Wilmington DE or even Lansing, Michigan.

Ran into one person I knew so I stopped and talked a bit. It is good to have a social circle of outgoing friends. The relationships I have built since arriving here are something I cherish. Moving thousands of miles away from wherever your life started takes a certain spirit. For the most part that spirit is an outgoing and open to experience spirit. I like people who live that way.

Well I got my walk in. Hopefully I can keep it up. Got to keep the doctor happy. Hell, I know this kind of exercise, like my daily walks, is crucial in maintaining both my physical and mental health. So I am not really doing it for the doctor, I am doing it for me.

Jazz as I Clean

 

Seen in Coimbra

Jazz is hearing a warping dropping bass line and thinking where have I heard that style before? Was it Jaco? Was it something Ron Carter did that time I saw him in the 200 seat auditorium? My ears perked up to hear where the guitarist on the hollow body Gibson takes the theme next. I wonder if this will end with soft piano tinkling and brushes playing atop the drums or something bolder? Maybe it will spin off into a much different theme. Jazz plays and suddenly I am back in the 1970s listening to jazz from the late fifties and the fusion sound of Return to Forever and Herbie Hancock.

Suddenly the music takes a sharp left turn and the guitar player drops into some soft melodic noodling and the piano fades to a gentle counterpoint. Just as suddenly I remember a night in the dormitory with all my midterms done and dinner in the cafeteria over. I lit up a damn fine joint and started listening to Joe Sample and then moved on to that Chick Chorea Gary Burton vibe driven thing. With a candle burning I leaned across my bed and rested my head against the pale green wall and let the music take me away. I am pretty sure the snow outside was six inches deep and my room's window panes in that old red brick building were completely frosted over.

Damn the song changes. The combo goes old school. The Hammond B3 is now leading the way into something you would have seen in a smoky New York jazz club circa 1967. I can see a room in dim light jammed full of small circular tables with people drinking Manhattans and nodding their heads and occasionally going “Yeah man.” I think as I continue my chores that before this night is over I should dig out some of those vintage Miles tunes that I had on that old jazz label, maybe Nature Boy. Or maybe I should check out something like Gil Scott Heron’s Pieces of a Man.

Yeah, jazz takes you to places you have forgotten or never been. Jazz is a journey through time and emotion filled with rich, soulful melodies.

Water, Wind, and the Power of Nature Outweigh Fools at Work

16 February 2025

Yesterday after a quick trip down to a hospital by the Tejo River a family decision was made to head out to the ocean. We hopped on a Carris bus to Ericiera. The trip isn't long, merely a few minutes more than an hour. The road winds a wee bit winding and the steep hillsides and the tight turns make the route a fun one.

I didn't care that much about the trip because I have not been feeling up to snuff as of late. Add in the fact that the hills in Ericiera make the hills in Lisboa look like a flat football field and I wasn't looking forward to it. But I went.

Once I got to Ericiera two things made the trip worthwhile. The first was the ocean's power. In my life the closest I have ever felt to God, or to the eternal, is when I have been by the waters of the North Atlantic. Yesterday the waters along the coast reminded me of that sense, that feeling. 

As we stood on the rocky edge of the ocean the swells were three to four meters tall. You could just sense the power in that building ridge of saline water. And then it hit the rocks and threw spray at times up to a height of just shy of forty feet into the air. Then, the spray fell slapping the brown and grey rocks louder than a prissy movie queen hitting her unfaithful fictional lover. 

With all that is wrong in the world today the constancy and the power of the ocean was what I needed to break the doom loop playing out in my mind. I felt at peace with nature as I watched those powerful waves. I realized again that no matter what we humans do to harm and denigrate each other nature is inherently our better. My cares dropped away.

hen there was the walk up the ramp from the fisherman's beach. So many feral cats who live off the scraps of the fishing fleet. It was surprising the number of Siamese cats walking down that ramp. But there were cats of every shape and stripe.Hey, the ocean reminded me how insignificant we are. However, the cats reminded me that there are still a few delights to be experienced in this world.

Saw this guy just watching the day go by. He seemed to take no notice of the beach volleyball game going out just fifty meters away.

This cat was walking with real purpose.  It seemed like he had places to go and obnoxious humans taking his picture were not his concern. 

The Captain below was just waiting for the next jaunt out onto the waves. Fish guts and fish heads await.